
So this is me right now (contemplating my calcaneus apparently).
Yes, I took the "summer school" plunge and am now spending my days with microbes and bones. Well, at least some of them are fairly solid friends. Actually, classes are going well and I feel very blessed.
It's been a true privilege in this last year to be able to go back to school and be immersed in the intricacies of the human body. Truly, we are "fearfully and wonderfully made," and the more I learn, the more I praise God for His care and genius in creating us. From the molecular level on up, the design of this organism called "us" has astonished me again and again. I've sat there in complete awe while studying nerve action potentials, for example. Okay, so maybe I'm getting scarily geeky, but it thrilled me! All these molecules going here and going there, and depolarizing this and opening that ion channel and releasing this neurotransmitter....and it's all going on every second, all over the body! Wow.
Many of you know how I was dragging my feet about this summer semester. Let's just say that I was not "rejoicing always." But God's been so faithful!
I was concerned about being able to handle both microbiology and anatomy in a short semester, and then both classes turned out to have great professors. Anatomy especially is a riot! I didn't think that it was possible to lecture "interestingly" in a subject that you largely just have to memorize, but it's been fun. And microbiology has been easy ('nough said!). Oh, and cadavers are still to come! Yippee! Truly, I've been looking forward to cadaver lab since I started. :) (Just call me a weird nursing student.)
I was dreading all the time spent driving to Brigham City, but it's been a fabulous time of listening to books on CD, singing my heart out, soaking in the beauty of the daily-changing canyon, and....um, yeah, memorizing those bones.
I was also worried about becoming an absentee from the family and useless at the pregnancy center because of all the studying. Well, I know I'm less "there," but it's been better than I expected (probably people are just giving me lots of grace!). But still I'm thankful. I'd appreciate prayer for this area though---balance, always a bit of a tight-rope for me. :)
So bones and happiness? Well, I AM finding lots of happiness this summer! There really is a particular "species" of true delight in bones and microbes and action potentials. Also I have been finding, yet again, that the love and mercy of the Lord doesn't fail. Ever. At the height of my summer-school, pity-thyself grumpiness I read in Deuteronomy:
"The Lord did not set His love on you nor choose you because you were more in number than any of the peoples, for you were the fewest of all peoples, but because the Lord loved you..." (7:6-7)
The Lord loves me because His nature and being is love, not because I'm at all lovable in and of myself. I had been very unthankful and unlovable about school and other things. But, man, really how can my soul be downcast? I have a Savior who is mighty and gracious and worthy of praise! And I
get to spend some weeks immersed in fascinating subjects. So this summer... praising God for His character and for the bones He has made!